July 29, 2009

Cheers and Tears

DISCLAIMER: What you are about to read is EXTREMELY random (to this day I feel like I should have been diagnosed with ADHD). Also, I'm very forward, blunt, open, and sometimes gross. Sorry, that's how I roll. Enjoy!

CHEERS! There are MANY wonderful things going on in our lives right now! We are very fortunate to have been married for just under 5 years, lived in our house for nearly 3 years, to both have great jobs, and most of all to have loving and supportive friends and families. We've got it pretty good and are very grateful.

CHEERS! We had a TON of fun with friends this past weekend. Between wine tasting, frisbee golf, and the Sunbelt Company Picnic, great times were had by all!

CHEERS! Scott has just ONE MORE MONTH of RoughRiders baseball! I can't wait for the day when I ask, "How was work?" and he responds something other than, "busy and stressful." It's not too far away!!! So proud that he is near the end of 6 seasons with the RoughRiders.

CHEERS! Weight Watchers Update: So this past Friday morning (not my usual weekly meeting) I went to weigh in. My past SEVERAL weeks have been very tiny losses (to be expected now that I'm much closer to my goal). Well, this week was AMAZING. I lost 3.6 pounds...WHAT??? Crazy, I know. The funny thing is, my week wasn't really all that different. My food and exercise was nearly the same. There's no magical determinant as to why my body chose to drop weight like that. I'm NOT complaining though!!! I haven't had a weight-loss week like that since February! AMEN!!! So...the magic number is currently -64.2. Not too shabby.

TEARS. Let me start off by saying that I am all of a sudden crying ALL OF THE TIME. It's ridiculous actually, ask my mom or husband and they will confirm. It's not just during my "special" weeks and I'm not pregnant. Just crazy emotional and self reflective. Watch out...I might cry to you.

TEARS. Oh Facebook, how I love you. How I spend TOO MUCH TIME on you. WAY TOO MUCH TIME. So, if you check out my photos, you'll notice that there's not a lot from 2004-2007. Some, just few and far between. There's a reason for this. Fluffier Caroline had the choice (thank you digital cameras) to delete pics that were less flattering (to be honest, that was most of the pictures taken during this time period). So, I'm safe, right? Well apparently, it's cool now to post WAY old pics on FB. WTH, guys? Am I really upset at people for doing this? No. It has been really good for me. I had erased all memory of what I looked like during these years (and before) so it was saddening and interesting all at the same time. I knew that I had weight to lose, I guess I was just in denial...A LOT of denial. I look at fluffier Caroline and think, "That poor girl. That poor clueless girl." I was SO unhealthy and barely knew it.

TEARS. I am not perfect (mom is laughing). If I listed what I ate yesterday, you would shudder. I have forgiven myself and moved on. Today has to be better, right? I'm starting the day off right: coffee, yogurt and oatmeal. Must take the Reeses peanut butter cups and throw them out. But they're in the freezer...with the left over Girl Scout cookies! Ahhh!!! And you wonder why Scott and I only keep chicken, rice, and steamer bags around the house. I am a food monster. You'd think after losing this weight, I would be CURED. Nope, hate to disappoint you. I am an addict...addicted to food. I struggle with my food choices EVERY SINGLE DAY. I'm not going to quit though and I want to be held accountable. If anyone sees the pounds creeping back on, you might say to me, "Wow, Caroline. Been eating a lot of Chili's boneless buffalo wings?" LOVE me some boneless buffalo wings.

TEARS. Owie owie owie. If you've read my FB posts, you'll know that I have my first running injury. While I'm trying VERY hard not to let it get me down...there have been a lot of tears over this stupid knee. I'm taking the week off (sort-of) hoping it will heal on its own. Pray that it will heal on its own. I'm TERRIFIED that a doctor will tell me to take 6 weeks off. I am marathon training here, people. That is NOT an option.

Until next time...

-Less Fluffy Caroline


  1. Caroline you absolutely crack me up!! YOur blog had me laughing pretty good! That is so awesome tha tyou are into running as much as you are nad congratulation with your amazing weight loss, I know that was not easy. We should find a time to run together. I think we have a similar pace and I am going to start training for a 1/2 marathon after tri season is over. I have never done one before, so YIKES!

  2. Love your honesty! I know we don't know each other well, but you have encouraged me to start making better choices. Thanks for that and keep up the blogging. I have enjoyed having mine over the last 4years. Sometimes it is just nice to get it out of your brain.

    BTW, We would love to hang out with you guys again. Have a great rest of the week.

  3. You are beautiful Caroline! I've always thought that you were, but I'm so proud of you for all the hard work and determination you've put in to lose weight! You are an encouragement to all! I'm so glad you're blogging again! Yeah, I am a follower now, so I'll keep checking in on you! Love ya!

  4. "Fluffy" or non-fluffy, you are a stunner Caroline!!!! Your heart was probably just as beautiful then as it is now - don't be ashamed of the fluffier version :)
    But amazing weight loss none-the-less!!

  5. First of all, thanks to each one of you for reading and for your kind words! I am a work-in-progress :)

    Diana-glad to make you laugh...that makes me happy. I'd LOVE to go for a run together sometime. Tell me more about this tri FUN. I'm fascinated and interested!!! WTG!

    Tiff-HA! Maybe a little TOO honest. Oh well, it is what it is. We don't know each other that well but I feel like we do...strange. Let's definitely do something about it. I'd LOVE for us to get together...soon :) Glad that my drama has been encouraging to you.

    Vaness-my LOVE! Oh how I miss your smiling face. Thank you for your precious words of encouragement...it means A LOT. Hopefully, I will be able to keep up the blogging when school starts. I'm really enjoying it. YAY...yes, please check back in.

    April-you're so sweet. Thanks for uplifting me! I'm working on the inside and out. Sometimes the outside seems easier!!!

  6. You are so funny! I love reading your blog.